There is a difference between being a dreamer to escape reality and being someone with a dream. In my previous post, I spoke how I used dreaming to escape my toxic relationship, but now I want write about my dream for my life.
I realize that my dream was never unattainable. It wasn’t out of reach, because everything I needed was in me the whole time. I was able to grab a hold of my dream and run with it. I may have not met my goal of being a career driven married woman with children (by 25), but that’s okay. Honestly, I’ve gain so much more and could step into a life I never imagined for myself. My life has taken so many unexpected turns and every day brings a new adventure. I have the freedom to do whatever I want. I can buy the plane ticket and leave 3 weeks later to Costa Rica or Thailand. I can decide in 30 minutes leaving and driving spontaneously to the Grand Canyon (which I ended up in Utah instead) or Washington. I can silence everything and leave. Though I do need to work on planning, so I don’t arrive in a new country at 11pm without a clue on where I am going to stay (It’s okay, I bought a plane ticket to leave that morning to a different city).
When I’m looking out the window of a plane or driving through the scenery of the states, I can’t help but ponder the beauty that surrounds me. In those moments, I’m exploring the lands that are unknown to me I feel so alive. There is so much beauty in the world from the architect in Europe, to the culture in China, the tropical rainforest in Costa Rica, and crystal clear beaches of Thailand. If I never set my fears and worries aside I would never have got to see different parts of the world. I’ve learned not to be afraid and live in the moment. If I want to go somewhere I go, and if I want to do something I do it. I don’t let anything hold me back (not even money), I find a way to make it happen. I do it cheaply, I don’t stay at the nicest places or go out to fancy restaurants and splurge. I stretch my money so
I can do and see everything I want to without worry. Some people call me reckless and others say I am impulsive, but I like to think I am a free spirit wandering around the world. And it doesn’t matter what anyone thinks or say, because it is my passion and I am happy when I am doing it.
I want more in life than just living for a paycheck or routine. I want spontaneity and passion. I like to live as if I have nothing holding me back and no limits. But I do it responsibly and smart (well sometimes).
I’ve embarked on a journey of finding and loving myself through travel, love, and the hardships I’ve endured. Every broken piece in my life seemed to fit together so perfectly that it built a master piece (the master piece of my life) and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Dreams aren’t meant to be contained, they are there for us so we can live them.